donewitluv

why me

2008-02-20T05:06:46Z

when i look at myself in the mirror, i wish i was someone else. more i look the more things i c bout myself that i hate. im already imperfect enough . lets not add to it. i try to figure out why god made me this way. was it a punishment?
all i can ask is " god why did you do this to me? why me?"

people laugh cuz im imperfect and not like the other girls. if i had one wish, i'd wish god would take me and make me a new person. its not fair that im like this. these are reasons y girls like me do things like drink, do drugs, cut and commit suiecide. it s not fair. god, why me???? please change me. make me beautiful on the inside and out. i hate me. beauty is jus as much a curse as it is a blessing.

lyrics to a song i wrote ! ----trembling

2008-02-18T20:42:38Z

iM NOT ALRIGHT , I FEEL SORTA DEAD.
i'M HANGING OFF A CLIFF ON A REAL BREAKABLE THREAD.
WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY?
IT HAPPENED AGAIN ,
IT WAS JUST ANOTHER TIME,
JUST ANOTHER FIGHT.
WE GOT TO WRAPPED UP IN OUR PRIDE
WE WERE TO SELFISH TO PUT IT ALL ASIDE!
I WANNA START OVER ,
A FRESH START ,
WITH A GOOD ENDING
YOU GOT TO FAR AHEAD,
i'VE FALLEN BEHIND,
ALL I NEEDED WAS A LIL MORE TIME
CANT SEEM TO FIND
ANY REASONS WHY,I SHOULD STAY OR GO ,
LIVE OR DIE!
YOU HATE ME FOR LOVING YOU,
WHAT CAN I DO OR SAY?
SOMETHING IS GETTING IN THE WAY.
SEEMS WE'RE COMING TO AN END.
YOU SAID YOU'D
NEVER HURT ME,
NEVER LEAVE ME.
BUT YOUR WORDS HURT ME,
LEFT ME WITH A HEARTACHE
CAN YOU SEE THE TEARS RUNNIN DOWN MY CHEAK?
IT'S ALL EASIER SAID THAN DONE.
YOU'RE TREMBLING NOW!
WHY YOU STUMBLING NOW??????
YOU SAID THAT I WAS EVERYTHING TO YOU
NOW YOUR LETTING ME WALK OUTA YOUR LIFE ,
LIKE IM NOTHING AT ALL.
YOU SAID YOU WOULDNT BREAK MY HEART.
BUT LOOK,
ITS SHATERED GLASS,
IT'S ALL EASIER SAID THAN DONE.
YOU'RE TREMBLING NOW!
WHY YOU STUMBLING NOW??????
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT,
THOUHT IT WAS ME.
BABY YOU THOUGHT IT WAS ME!
GUESS YOU WERE WRONG
BABY I THOUGHT IT WAS ME
GUESS I WAS WRONG
GUESS WE WERE WRONG

THIS GAME ,
I DIDNT WANNA PLAY,
BUT I DID ANYWAY.
ITS ALL OVER NOW
YOU LOST AT YOUR OWN GAME!
YOU'RE TREMBLING NOW!
WHY YOU STUMBLING NOW??????
I'VE BEEN THINKIN BOUT IT,
NOW IFOUND A LIL SOMETHING TO SAY:
IM SORRY FOR LOVING YOU
IM SORRY THAT I CARED
kEEP ON WISHIN FOR
ME TO BE GONE,
CUZ ONE DAY
WHEN YOU NEED ME
I WONT BE THERE!
YOU'RE TREMBLING NOW!
WHY YOU STUMBLING NOW?????

iM ALRIGHT , I FEEL NOTHIN 4 YOU
CUZ IM THINKIN BOUT SOMEONE ELSE INSTEAD,
i'M NO LONGER HANGING OFF A CLIFF ON A BREAKABLE THREAD.

SOMETHIN GOT IN THE WAY.
IM SORRY THAT IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY.

GOD

2008-02-18T02:59:46Z

If you dont have Love then you dont have anything at all. What do you do when you have nothing left? What do you reach 4 wen ther are no more hands 2 hold onto anymore?
Wat happens wen the path u've been walking comes to an end? Why do you walk in the darkness wen you could be walking in the light?

If the path u've been walking comes to an end , turn around and walk bak but this time walk in the light.
If no one reaches out to give you ther hand, reach yours up towards the sky, so GOD can give you his & wings so you can fly!

writte by my friend Sam C

2008-02-17T05:22:36Z

boys suck.
they're fuckin' dicks.
they lie, they cheat.
and aint nothing but skin & meat.

they make up excuses
and never can be honest
hey twist words u say
and make u take the blame

you cant help but love them
and so, it sucks
when u fall for them
an they brake ur heart

they say they love you
but love is just a word
no one means it
when they say it

dont know anymore

2008-02-16T01:48:26Z

what is real?
what isn't?
who should i love?
and who should i not?
when does a wrong make a right?
can a wrong make a right?
i know it can.
but i dont know who i should trust and who i should tell to **** off!
i dont know anymore!!!
GOD HELP ME!!!!!!

memories

2008-02-13T03:08:22Z

its funny sommetimes , how you can think tht sumthin is gonna las 4ever. or that somthing is the best. and how you wish sum things would never end. but its also funny how you can hold on2 sum1 4along time bcuz they means so much to you!, then you end up letting them walk out ur life like ther nothing at all 2 u. y and how do ppl do tht.

its hard todo
and it hurts to have it done to you.

him

2008-02-12T23:53:53Z

IM SO!!!!!!!!!!!......... SCREWED. OMG!!!! I HATE LIFE I HATE GUYS I HATE ME!!!!! DUDE...... IM SO IMPERFECT AND I HAVE SO MANY IMPERFECTIONS.... I HATE ME!!!!! GUYS THERS NOT ONE WORD 2 DISCRIBE THEM! THEY ARE LIARS! GOD. I NEED 2 MOVE ON 4GET BOUT MY X. AND TRY 2 TRUST MY BOYFRIEND EVEN THO HES A GUY AND GUYS ARE LIARS. BUT IDK. WATEVER !!! FUCK IT!!!!

FUCK IT FUCK IT!!!

when im bord and upset i do crazy things like this

2008-02-11T01:14:48Z

u HAD me RAPPED around your FINGER.

i BELIEVED every WORD that you SAID.

i NEVER thought you WOULD be the ONE to LIE to ME.

cuzof tht ,to me, ur like dead

LOOK at ME!! cant you SEE the PAIN u CUASED ?

U said i was eerything to you.but you didnt tell me i was everthing that didnt matter,

u used me

u betrayed me and let me down.

you took a knife to my heeart and split it down the middle

u made me sow it bak 2gether

(mend it bak 2gether)

after that what did you try todo -

u tryied ripping the seam!

BUT u couldnt cuz i maade myself ammuned to u.

and it took me 4ever .

but sum how i got threw.

ive made many mstakes

you were the biggest one yet.

i wish we would've never met.

dont point your finger.

you got no one but yourself 2 blame.

you may hav broke me down but i got bak up.

im done with ur evil glares

unending stares.

nothing u do ,

thers no words you can say to make things right.

you need 2 shutit and stick it.

im callin you out. im so sickof ur ****

stop pretending to be sum1 ur not ur not fooling any1 expecially me

stop liein to urself.

you said ud always b ther 4 me

but look at wARE you are,

your noware near

(no ware near)

we said our goodbyes

no more tears are gonna fall from my eyes.

cuz ur not worth even one

(ur worth none)

jus no from tis day on

ull never cross my mind

yet ull be thinking of me all the time.

wenyou see me in the hall

dont look at me. turn and walk the other way.

you huanted my dreams and scarred my heart

im gone

we're done

your jus a innocent face

with a dark soul and a black heart.

guys R the predator & girls R the prey

2008-02-11T00:28:35Z

I sware ther is only one thing guys r good at. and that is lieing. all guys wanna do is find a girl that is valnerable and that will believe everything they say. so they can build up the trust and knock it down after they are done doing wat they wanna do with it! thay think thay can get away with wat ever they want. but they need to remember ther is a lil thing called KARMA!!! and Karma is a real B****! if they are dumb enough to lie then they are dumb enough to get cought in tht lie. but then again sumtimes they dont get cought and the girl figures out after the relationship is over. but wat you think the girl is gonna do???? shes gonna tell every1 wat kindof guy he was then almost every girl will know the truth and wont wanna be with him. trust me its happened b4. any GUY can love a thousand GIRLS but it takes one MAN to love 1 GIRL ina thousand WAYS

sick

2008-02-10T00:58:53Z

im still sick. dang......... it sux. but thers nothin i can do. ima hav relax take my medicine and pray tht i get better. well thts all for now. peace out!!!!

omg

2008-02-10T00:54:28Z

DUDE........... ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I'VE BEEN ON!!!! LOL.

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED!!!
ok THE WHOLE JUSTIN THING IS FAR OVER. OUR RELATIONSHIP ENDED AT A YEAR AND 4 MONTHS. YEA........ AND IT WAS HIS FALT. I HATE HIM!!! HE CAN BURN 4ALL I CARE! HES ON MY SHIT LIST. IMA NOT WISH HIM WELL. ANYWAYS MOVING ON.... LETS SEE I HAVE A NEW BF, NAMED REGAN!WE'VE BEEN GOING OUT FOR 2 MONTHS.HES REALLY SWEET. HE SAYS HE LOVES ME BUT 2 TELL YOU THE TRUTH LOVE IS JUS A WORD 2ME NOW. CUZ AFTER WAAT HAPPENED WITH JUSTIN I WENT OUT WIT THIS GUT NAMED DYLAN!!!! AND HE BROKE MY HEART AFTER A MONTH. WE WENT BAK OUT AND HE BROKE MY HEART AGAIN. IT HURT WORSE THAN JUSTIN. I LOVED DYLAN MORE THAN I LOVED ANYONE EVER B4. AND I KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE I STILL DO! I STILL CARE BOUT HIM AND I DONT KNOW WAT TODO! ALL I KNOW THAT I COULD DO IS TRY TO BE STRONG AND MOVE ON. I WAS SO STRONG WHEN I WAS WITH HIM, BUT I GOTTA LEARN TO B STRONGER. IM SICK OF WAITING FOR HIM TO TURN AROUND. BUT WHEN HE FINALLY DOES I WONT BE THER, CUZ ILL BE OVER IT AND OVER HIM. HOPEFULLY!!! AND YEA.... STILL LIVIN IN SUCKY ARIZONA!!

skewl

2008-02-07T03:12:02Z

i didnt go 2 skewl 2day cuz i waz sick. but im going tomorrow. and man am i dreding it....... work...... work..... and more work...... ugh...... aw welll thts highshool

bord

2008-02-07T00:03:28Z

today sux. im bord